Comments on: Happy Moment Turned Sad

By: Dawn Montgomery

Dawn Montgomery — Thu, 19 Nov 2009 16:52:59 +0000

*hugs you so tight* Sweetheart, I’ll drink a glass of wine with you from here in celebration of your first NY release. And Pray with everything in me.

By: Bianca D'Arc

Bianca D'Arc — Sat, 14 Nov 2009 15:22:04 +0000

Well, I sort of “celebrated” by seeing the only friend I have left from high school. She now lives far away and comes to town a few times a year. We usually try to have dinner or something. This time, she came to visit my Mom and we talked for an hour or two. It was really helpful. I also finally cracked and told her my pen name and gave her the first copy of HPD. It’s not her usual reading material, but I hope she’ll enjoy a walk on the wild side.

Right now Mom is very sick. I think she has a stomach virus (since I woke up with it today). I think she caught it from one of the nurses who had to take a day off last week, but was back the next day. It’s one thing for a healthy person to battle a stomach virus, but for someone on chemo, this could be fatal. She hasn’t eaten in 4 days and doesn’t drink much. She also hasn’t moved out of her recliner and is pretty much out of it. This is the worst thing ever – having to watch someone you love more than life itself wasting away before your eyes. Please pray. Thanks.

By: Suzette

Suzette — Fri, 13 Nov 2009 00:12:50 +0000

Bianca, I have to agree. Celebrate in whatever small way you can. As always, my thoughts and prayers are with you all.

By: Severine P.

Severine P. — Thu, 12 Nov 2009 11:38:25 +0000

I’ve been follwing your posts too for a while and I can relate to everything you say. But I have to agree with Tina S. My grandfather (who was like my own father for me) died of cancer when he was 64 – we lost him 3 weeks after the diagnose – he didn’t even have the chance for chemo because the cancer was too agressive. Like you, I told myself to wait with things until he was back up on his feet (at the time, I hoped against better knowledge that he would be okay) – but the last time I saw him in hospital concious, I told him everything I always wanted to tell him. And today I am glad I did. The next day, he fell into a coma and never came out of it before he finally died. So enjoy every moment you have with your mom, celebrate everything you have to celebrate, no matter how small it is. This way, you will not regret that you didn’t.

By: Tina S.

Tina S. — Wed, 11 Nov 2009 19:27:59 +0000

I have been following your posts concerning your mom’s illness and have felt great sadness for you. I have never lost anyone that close to me so I cannot truly know how you are feeling. Your post today compels me to reply.

This is a joyous time for you with your first print book, celebrate with your mom. Maybe you can’t celebrate the way you planned, but celebrate in some way. While there is always hope, should the worst happen you will treasure that moment that your mom was there to celebrate this special time with you.

While things suck right now and most days aren’t the best, celebrate every little happy time there are now so that later you can look back on those moments and not just the great sadness of the time.